Yup. You read that title correctly. I've gone there. Though I'm not quite certain 'dating' is a accurate term. My last post I mentioned my desire to meet new people, preferably some in a similar point in life. Typically we meet people where we are at such as school or work, right? Have I mentioned I work from home, where I interact with coworkers via phone or Internet who are nowhere near my home state and I share actual office space with three dogs and a cat? Beyond work I'm shuttling kids. So where am I supposed to meet others in a similar point in life? Yeah, easiest place to go, is to go there.
I must confess, the anonymity of online 'dating' makes meeting boys again far less intimidating. I was twenty the last time I flirted. I was twenty the last time I went on a first date. You forget a lot in sixteen years. A lot. It's weird to be single again and a bit terrifying. The anonymity of meeting boys online easily allows baby steps and leaves me a lot of room to chicken out (SCORE). I say boys because I just feel like a teenager again, not because I'm actually meeting them (at least as far as I can tell--that's a definite downfall of that whole anonymity thing). Along with plenty of room to chicken out, it provides plenty of room to humiliate myself with people I will not have to ever see again face to face (BONUS).
So I've gone there and am surviving the scary baby steps forward. Like that very first meeting for coffee? Weird and awkward. (And it was just coffee, NOT a date) And that very first 'nice to meet you, but not interested'? Disappointing and also a huge relief. Then actually big joy, because I realized I just checked off my second very first rejection (YAY!)
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