The Professor made it safely back to St. Louis yesterday and after speaking with the local radiology oncologist he called me and said we're done. The radiation would buy no quality of life and once there are brain mets there won't be a good outcome. He always promised Dane he'd be honest and tell us when there is nothing more he can do, and there is nothing more he can do. He called me just as they were pushing to schedule radiation and the moment he said we're done, I dropped to my knees in relief. I knew in my heart that this was it and there was no reason to put him through the torture of it, but I just needed to hear it from one of HIS doctors. Mr. 1inamillion has had complete faith in the Professor so hearing it from him was truly a blessing to the big kid and I. The decision was no longer on our shoulders.
The Professor said there wouldn't be a good outcome, but I know that's not true. We have been on such a tough journey. I feel like we have been climbing over a mountain and have just hit that point of witnessing the beautiful valley that awaits. There's still incredibly hard terrain to make it through and we have no idea of how long, but as followers of Christ we know the promise that awaits and I feel like Mr. 1inamillion's destination is within our sights.
If you have a few more minutes, take a look at this Steven Curtis Chapman video. It's a wonderful cheerful little ditty thatjust fits right now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YE4Yf4NkdrU&feature=youtube_gdata_player
Dearest Angie, I am so sad yet relieved for you as I read this. God is sovereign, and it is in His hands. We continue to pray for healing in whatever form that may be. You are not making this journey alone, and we are here to walk by your side. Much love, Janet
ReplyDeletePrayers for your husband, you and your family!
ReplyDeleteAngie,
ReplyDeleteI will keep you all in my prayers, Dane has been a friend for many years and even as the feelings of sorrow overwhelm I know that God has great mercy and will walk with you. Please tell Dane we are thinking of him!!!
We are thinking of you and your family. My heart goes out to you all. I'll be lifting you up. Much love your way - The Malanchuks
ReplyDeleteAngie~ I have recently slowed pace and read your blog, something I have been wanting to do. I really had no idea how much you have been going through. It's shameful how unimportant things take priority over something as simple as reaching out to you. I'm sorry that I haven't sooner. Your family is in my many prayers. There is a verse that I like to read during tough times to remind myself that all I need to do it put all of my faith in God. I can see that you and your family have embraced that, and it's a beautiful thing! Just seeing pictures of you, I see an extremely strong and resilient woman!!! Your husband is a lucky guy to have you by his side! Love and prayers~ Nicki
ReplyDeleteMay God, the source of hope, fill you with joy and peace through your faith in him. Then you will overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13
Angie, I'm praying for all of you. If you get a chance please pass my love on to Dane. I am honored to have worked with him and kept in touch with him all these years. -"Crash"
ReplyDeleteAngie...
ReplyDeleteKeeping you in our prayers.
You and your family are in my prayers. I have been in this same situation and it is hard no matter what you do. I wish you all the best and keep turning to the lord. He is your answer!! He will comfort you when you need it and is always there!
ReplyDeleteWe love you!!
Angie,
ReplyDeleteI always knew you were amazing based on Dane and the way he would speak of you, but this... this I am amazed by. It- and you - are a testimony to Christ. I am praying with you and for you all. Love,
Amy Maxton