Prayer Request

Will you please join me in praying for our young friend Taylor?  She is Mr. 1inamillion's little cancer buddy.  She is part of our church family and has been battling leukemia for a few years and they grew close through their fight.  She is really struggling right now, and honestly I am struggling with her struggle.  My attempts at prayer result in sobs and anger. 

When I think about her, I cry.  I haven't been able to visit because I am certain I will crumble to tears.  My prayer for her starts with crying, then leads to pleading, then leads to an angry outburst.  Cancer treatments are discussed in odds and percentages in success rates, so in my mind Taylor should have a great outcome.  We lost my husband, so we should get to keep Taylor.  Period.  You don't get her too.  You just don't. 

Yesterday she was moved to ICU with lungs full of fluid and a scary forecast.  I sobbed and cried to God, then got angry with God and then began with crazy wifely threats (because threatening someone in heaven makes perfect sense)....
DANE!  You protect our girl.  If you are standing on the otherside for her, then so help me, it better be to body-block that damn gate and send her fifteen-year-old butt back down here! We need a victory.  That family deserves a victory! Your kids should see a victory!
Please God, I want a victory over cancer. 

This morning her Mom posted that things looked much better than last night as her lungs looked clearer.  Still critical, but stabilizing.  I'm still sobbing my prayers, crying out to God and threatening my dead husband today.  So clearly I'm not yet stable.  Without a doubt, I believe in the power of prayer.  Therefore it might certainly be helpful for a few more folks less damaged then me to pray for Taylor as well.